This past Wednesday I had a complete and total meltdown. You know the kind, ugly hysterical crying, misery and pain so deep that you not only give yourself a major headache but your grief causes every joint, muscle and fiber of your being to scream with pain.

Eammon came home early from work worried about me, and he really must have been as he passed up going to the pub to watch the
2006 UEFA Championship Final. He tried to soothe and calm me but I was having none of it, I wanted to cry, I wanted to be miserable, unhappy, self pitying and in pain. As we laid in bed, me soaking his chest with my tears, he just held me and let me cry it out. For the remainder of the week, I avoided all the boards, blogs, rumors, almost all emails and even the phone. Slowly I've come to terms with the new evil timeline, (
#3 Ugly) as what choice do I have.
My Mom sent gifts to both me and Baby S this week and gifts always help make me

feel better. The sweater is so cute, the bunny (no not the evil bunnies of the prior post) is so, so soft. I can't wait for Baby S to wear it, I know she'll look adorable. The electronic Sudoku game will be perfect for when we do actually travel to China. It has over a million puzzles and it's a lot smaller and lighter than carrying books of puzzles. Thanks Mom!
Saturday evening was the monthly gathering of our local
adopting families group. The voiceless Sonia and hubby Hugh, both a mere week and a half from travel to
Kailee, hosted a wonderful cook out, bonfire evening for 33 adults, 16 children and 5 adorable babies. The children all played well together and made s'mores over the fire. The adults who are still waiting for their children, complained to and supported one another. The people with their babies already home, allowed who ever wanted to get hugs, snuggles and lovies from their little girls and shared great information on travel and the children. The babies...well they as usual were the highlight of the night and cute as can be. The picture at the top of this post is Eammon holding the lovely
Mary Clare, the most recent of our group to come home to her forever family.





Last but not least, Shipley (2 months old) the youngest member of our group.