Sunday, May 21, 2006

Meltdown and recovery

This past Wednesday I had a complete and total meltdown. You know the kind, ugly hysterical crying, misery and pain so deep that you not only give yourself a major headache but your grief causes every joint, muscle and fiber of your being to scream with pain. Eammon came home early from work worried about me, and he really must have been as he passed up going to the pub to watch the 2006 UEFA Championship Final. He tried to soothe and calm me but I was having none of it, I wanted to cry, I wanted to be miserable, unhappy, self pitying and in pain. As we laid in bed, me soaking his chest with my tears, he just held me and let me cry it out. For the remainder of the week, I avoided all the boards, blogs, rumors, almost all emails and even the phone. Slowly I've come to terms with the new evil timeline, (#3 Ugly) as what choice do I have.

My Mom sent gifts to both me and Baby S this week and gifts always help make me feel better. The sweater is so cute, the bunny (no not the evil bunnies of the prior post) is so, so soft. I can't wait for Baby S to wear it, I know she'll look adorable. The electronic Sudoku game will be perfect for when we do actually travel to China. It has over a million puzzles and it's a lot smaller and lighter than carrying books of puzzles. Thanks Mom!

Saturday evening was the monthly gathering of our local adopting families group. The voiceless Sonia and hubby Hugh, both a mere week and a half from travel to Kailee, hosted a wonderful cook out, bonfire evening for 33 adults, 16 children and 5 adorable babies. The children all played well together and made s'mores over the fire. The adults who are still waiting for their children, complained to and supported one another. The people with their babies already home, allowed who ever wanted to get hugs, snuggles and lovies from their little girls and shared great information on travel and the children. The babies...well they as usual were the highlight of the night and cute as can be. The picture at the top of this post is Eammon holding the lovely Mary Clare, the most recent of our group to come home to her forever family.

Last but not least, Shipley (2 months old) the youngest member of our group.


  1. Sometimes it all can suck so much.
    Wishing it all goes fast, fast, fast and knowing that sometimes it just won't.

  2. I'm so sorry Lisa. Sometimes all you can do is cry. Take care.

  3. Oh Lisa I wish I had words to make it better but sadly I don't. The only thing we can do is prop each other up when things get tough. This is so hard.

  4. Anonymous7:36 PM

    Awww girlie. I wish I could make it better for you. For all of us!

    Hang in there.

  5. I wish I could change things, too. I am starting to get pessimistic, and I was trying not to.


  6. Lisa - You are usually the rock that usually cheers everyone else up. So of course you are very much entitled to a mini meltdown every now and then. Please know that we are all here for you to talk to, cry to or even shop with!

  7. Hey Lisa... I'm soooo sorry to read your post today. : ( I know how hard this is.. first hand! But we can't do anything but hang in there and wait... it's out of our hands and it took me a long time to get to the point where I stopped stressing over something I have no power to change. It by no means makes things easier but it helps knowing I have done all I can do. It sounds like you have an awesome support network... I wish there was something more I could say to make this easier or even cheer you....

    Lisa :)

  8. Lisa just know that we all understand your sadness. No need to explain.....we certainly get it. I'm glad you were surrounded by friends this weekend to make it a little better and the gifts from your mom are helpful too.

    Hang in there. Sending you a big cyber HUUUUUUG.

  9. Sometimes the best and only thing we can do is cry it out!!! I know this waiting really does SUCK!!! Hang in there, your time is coming soon!!!


  10. I'm sorry you had such a hard time last week. Sometimes your body just needs that kind of day to "let it all out".

    This wait sure is taking it's toll on us. It's not fair.



  11. Sending you huge hugs Lisa. Take care of yourself and know that all of your friends are here for you and we understand. This waiting and not knowing is so hard to bear.

  12. Just wanted to say "thanks" for inviting us to the adoption group. Again, we had a great time. I wish I had advice on coping with the wait, but I just don't. It sucks!! Chocolate works, but only for a little while and I'm ready for another fix. I'm not sure my butt will fit on the plane by the time it's time for me to go.

  13. We did have a good time on Saturday, that's one of the major pluses of this entire painful process for me. Making the friends I've made and sharing it together.

  14. Anonymous11:22 PM

    Hang In there! Were all in this togeather. I'm feeling your pain

  15. Awww...Lisa. I wish I had something wise to say...but I am out. I'll be thinking of you...

  16. That sweater is soooooooooo cute. Go Mom!


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